Paranoia

I don't want to lose my friends. 

I can't lose my friends.

I don't get close to many people

I can't stop myself from trying to get close to people.

I can't stop myself from caring.

I can't stop this paranoia.

I take risks to end all this.

I just cant carry on.

I want to end all this.

I will end all this.

I am going to end all this.

I will kill myself.