Hot damn!
Karma. Interesting idea.
A lot of people say I'm blessed. Stable family, with parents earning a decent amount of money. That I get what ever I want or need from my parents. Clothes, books, electronic and food. That i should be happy with what I have.
Bullshit
Stable family huh? Try this, my entire extended family all have gone through university. Yes, my uncles, aunts, cousins.. Hell, I got a niece whos gone through university already! Straight As! And I gotta live up to that tradition.
I'm a person of many firsts in my family. First person to get below 240 for PSLE (188 points). First to go to normal academic. First to go to Polytechnic. First to get a B. First to get a C. First to get a D. And thats just for studies. The rest are too long to type out.
My achievements? Not much. Shot up a stream (normal academic to express). First in 3 outta 4 air gun competitions.
Stress is a powerful emotion. I dont know. I wanna live normal. I wanna be loved. Not treated as an item to show off.
I HATE BEING ALONE! I HATE COMING BACK TO A FAMILY THAT SCOLDS ME FOR EVERY SINGLE MISTAKE I DO!
RP, I get called encyclopieda. Hell, I dont mind some people acknowledging that I'm smart in some way. But at home, I get rat shit. I got 3As for last week. I'm fucking proud of it. I haven't gotten this much As for a damned long time. And their the only thing my family cares about. I show them the news, and I get "3? why not 5? You useless piece of ****!"
I see people smiling when they get As cause their parents will congratulate them in some way. Hell, no one know what I go through. Sure hell sucks being degraded everyday.
In every point in my life, I have badly wanted something. And I can never get it. Why? Cause circumstances dont allow me to. Its either my parents dont allow or that thing is outta my reach.
I can sure hell think of one thing that I really want now but I cant have.
Why the fuck is life so fucking unfair? I just want to be loved...
A lot of people say I'm blessed. Stable family, with parents earning a decent amount of money. That I get what ever I want or need from my parents. Clothes, books, electronic and food. That i should be happy with what I have.
Bullshit
Stable family huh? Try this, my entire extended family all have gone through university. Yes, my uncles, aunts, cousins.. Hell, I got a niece whos gone through university already! Straight As! And I gotta live up to that tradition.
I'm a person of many firsts in my family. First person to get below 240 for PSLE (188 points). First to go to normal academic. First to go to Polytechnic. First to get a B. First to get a C. First to get a D. And thats just for studies. The rest are too long to type out.
My achievements? Not much. Shot up a stream (normal academic to express). First in 3 outta 4 air gun competitions.
Stress is a powerful emotion. I dont know. I wanna live normal. I wanna be loved. Not treated as an item to show off.
I HATE BEING ALONE! I HATE COMING BACK TO A FAMILY THAT SCOLDS ME FOR EVERY SINGLE MISTAKE I DO!
RP, I get called encyclopieda. Hell, I dont mind some people acknowledging that I'm smart in some way. But at home, I get rat shit. I got 3As for last week. I'm fucking proud of it. I haven't gotten this much As for a damned long time. And their the only thing my family cares about. I show them the news, and I get "3? why not 5? You useless piece of ****!"
I see people smiling when they get As cause their parents will congratulate them in some way. Hell, no one know what I go through. Sure hell sucks being degraded everyday.
In every point in my life, I have badly wanted something. And I can never get it. Why? Cause circumstances dont allow me to. Its either my parents dont allow or that thing is outta my reach.
I can sure hell think of one thing that I really want now but I cant have.
Why the fuck is life so fucking unfair? I just want to be loved...
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